Assalamu'alaikum and Very Good Day Mates...!
Kaifa ahwal? Hopefully everyone in the pink of health. Ameenn. Nothing new info to share. Still, just a dropping by to write something that makes me uneasy. I don't know why. However, I do realize something that I can't express it out. Everything seems to be strangle in my head as well as deep in my heart.
Whatever it is, life must go on. We can't presume what will happen in the future. But, I really hopes that every single steps in my life I will fully utilize. I feel ashamed to me myself somehow. I don't know why. But sometimes I do think that I was given the opportunity to live on the earth, but what I had done for those years in helping the ummah? As if I don't even serve the ummah what about my relatives? my family members? even for me myself??? Then, I'm done with myself. The most important that I really scared off about my all did. What do I did for those years...?! Ya Allah..... :'(
If that so, what the next step I should do? Honestly, I really don't know. I always try to be a good one, but still at the end it's end up with nothing. Ya Rabb..! Please help me to accept everything and please give me a piece of patience as well as a strong heart. I feel scared when I think of what I had done.
"Ya Allah... Aku tidak layak untuk ke syurga-Mu, tetapi aku tidak sanggup menghadapi api neraka-Mu. Ampunkankah dosa-dosaku. Ya Rahman, Ya Rahim, Ya Rabbul'alamin." :'(
Seriously, I don't have an idea what I mess with. Nevertheless, life is full with ups and downs. So I'll attempt to put it as a positive way as I can. I still trying harder in comfort myself. I hope I don't loose hope. I really do. Allahuakbar..!
So, that's it. Ohh ya.. I just met one of my best friend today. We just spend lunch time together. But, it's enough for me. At least, we can met and hear from one another. Hopefully, one day I will meet all my best friends back to undergrad then. Hence, till we meet again. May Allah bless all of us. Ameeenn.. :)
Thanks for reading,
Take care... (^.^)
p/s: Bear in mind that I'm bad in language. Sorry peeps..!
though this post might be ridiculous too.
Ma'assalamah wa ilal liqa'...:)